Tumor? Are you serious? I was shocked!

I went in to the doctor this morning for what I thought was an infection in a gland or a lymph node. To my surprise I left with the diagnosis a tumor! From what the doctor said it is most likely benign but just like there are no guarantees in anything in life, it's not a guarantee.

So of course the fear based crazy part of my mind is planning my funeral and many other completely awful situations. I won't lie, I'm scared to death. I am praying, hoping, believing that what ever this is it will just go away. If that doesn't happen I hope that it can be removed and that I never have to face it again.

You see I've got so much more to do and to become here on Earth. I can't possibly go home to be with Jesus yet. So I am fixing my eyes on Him.

I am standing on Isaiah 43:1-2:

But now, this is what the LORD says—
he who created you, O Jacob,
he who formed you, O Israel:
"Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have summoned you by name; you are mine.

² When you pass through the waters,
I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
you will not be burned;
the flames will not set you ablaze.

And, Philippians 4:8:

Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable--if anything is excellent or praiseworthy--think about such things.

Please pray that I can think about lovely things. And that I can have joy in the fact that I serve a God who is loving and faithful no matter what the circumstance!