We're on a Journey

When we decided to adopt we knew that our life was definitely no longer our own. We are on a journey that is way bigger than us. When you have to line up the paperwork, homestudy, finances, your desires for a child, the birth mother choosing you; you have no choice but to let go. God has been slowly breaking me of my "Type A" need to control everything! It seems He's got another incredible path ahead of us.

We began Financial Peace University in September. It has been more than life changing. We are slowly working our way out of debt and had put our adoption plans on hold in order to focus completely on our debt and then we were thrown a curve ball. Through a series of conversations and open doors we are beginning the Foster Care process. Yes, we are becoming foster parents. I can't believe I'm even saying that. Aside from missions (which I now love) I told God I could not and would not EVER do that! On a side note: Don't ever tell God you don't want to do something. He may just challenge you and I am afraid He'll trump you!

We are both more than ecstatic about the way this all came together and about seeing how God uses us to change families and children. We had/have two concerns:

1. Our children and how they will cope with kids coming and going (although they're pretty adaptable and I think they'll be okay, but I will pray for their emotions)

2. Our emotions (let's be real, mostly mine, I do cry at the drop of a hat). I have clearly heard God's voice on many occasions in the past few months; it's not about you! I am calling you to change the lives of families, I never promised your life here would be easy, in fact quite the opposite. So rise and change the world as I've called you to do!

I *try* not to argue with God, so here we are.

So we left our first meeting (of many) less than two hours ago. And as soon as I finish this blog, I'm off to start the paperwork. I was convinced this process was over, but alas here I am again, papers and more papers. It's all good, it felt so great to leave and just look at each other and go, yep! We didn't even really have to say anything we both just knew. So here's to this next path in the journey, use us God, that's why we live!